why..things that i see,hear,know,are just another hole for me to fall right deep into it..placing my hand on a hot kettle for a minute seems like an hour..but spending an hour with you just seems like a second..i love you,but i cant tell you..the impossible dream began..and i dont know how to end it..the most hurting word that i would hate to say is 'goodbye' but is there a choice to change this around?i cant go on par with them..i will lose..but i dont wanna lose you..i really wanna cherish every moment i have left with you..but would you want?im really suffering,deep down..tell me what to do.

weixuan is miserable.

well,jc orientation started.okay,i wouldnt say i was bad to the core..but it made me thought of many fond memories i had in secondary school..sitting in the hll without my buddies around me to make jokes out of everything the speaker have to say..no sweets being passed around...eating in the canteen without buddies just sucks,food was tasteless..being unfamiliar to the surrounding,i totally had no confidence that i would be able to survive through this jc life.as some might have know,im appealing to a poly..but nontheless,results are still unknown..even though i dont know if that action i took was correct but i certainly have no idea what kind of dull life i would have without you guys..even the girl friends i made have gave me fond memories..which i would always hold dear to my heart..i promise..i hope everything would go smooth..if i really dont get into poly,i really hope we can still keep in close contact..for i never wanna forget you guys.aishiteru.

there simply just isnt justice in this world..what's up with that shit results..after all the i have put in and i still get this kind of pathetic marks,i might as well just quit studying..everyone's getting such good grades and im the only one who scores like shit..all my hopes were dashed just by the moment my name was called..freak man..seriously lost in life now..dont know how to pull myself tgt..i might just break down?or maybe not?i only know now im really screwed up in life..nothing works out now..hoping i could the same jc with some close friends..that's my only wish now..and seriously,im putting all my hopes on that only..im totally beaten..shag..if nothing works out fine before 15th jan,i would probably go for the other option,and only she knows that..guess if i go for that option everyone would slowly realise it too...im really lost now...confused,anger the negative feelings is simply overwhelming..what have i done to deserve this?i've worked hard,but still....lost for words..i dont know how to face them..im such a disappointment to them.sorry.

WOW!!i've come across this band Hey!Say!JUMP..they totally are a cute bunch of guys..though there are some age gap but it seems like their mental gap are quite close to each other..and there is superb teamwork and chemistry displayed in them!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rO196s3G5Kg
watch it!there are many more of them..watch their making of their MVs too..kawaii~~

Well, just some photos of prom:D

Well,it's been long since i've posted,very long indeed. Just suddenly felt like posting because i've something to tell everyone i've met,especially those in my class.
It has been great with you guys around.Buddies like jason,terry,davis,jianjie,who would always be the live wires of the class..disturbing the teachers,going against them..making people laugh at your comical actions. I really wonder what would my life be without you guys in my new class,what would life be like without you guys creating the ruckus.Thank you.

With people like jolyn in class,who has always been a very enthusiastic member,it has always been my blessings. Helping us to get our class tee done,getting our class outings planned.Will there be such friends when i continue my life?Thank you for all the you have done.

From the start,when we enter 3e2,though their were small groups in the class,but on the majority,everyone was unfamiliar with one another..(I know i wasnt a good classmate in the beginning,sorry for my wrongdoings,and i've hoped i've changed.)From the start we were ZIPPED,nobody talked..that's when the 3e2-ziip name came about i guess..But till the end,we were being scolded for talking like almost 2 times in a lesson,some kind of achivement yeah?:D Thinking back of all the fun we had together as a class,taking part in various events,cheering on them when they were down,i guess majority have felt us in one way or another..For those,who wasnt an active member of the class,perhaps you still have not felt attached to this class,but thanks for also being part in my wondeful memories.

Thankyou teachers,who has always been able to tolerate the nonsense from me.. not being able to DISTURB you is just simple one of my sadness.I wonder how many teachers i would meet in the future that would allow such nonsense from me..perhaps, i would have my parents down many trips to solve it,or maybe not,i might change:D but in any case,really many thanks to you for forgiving me time and time again,imparting your priceless knowledge down to me..Im indebted to you,thankyou very much.

Memories of my first day at school are still vivid in my mind..even my first camp,i met jason..cheeweng ashley..there were really good buddies..they cared for me and were there for me in times of need,and of course to my other friends in sec1 and 2..thank you for lending me your support when i was lost..

And to those friends who i've known who have never been my classmates before,like weilip,huizhe,thankyou..all the memories will be kept and locked right in my mind.

I didnt know from the start..that..graduation could give me this much sadness,thinking that,i wouldnt be able to walk into that school gate anymore,thinking that i cant enter the class 4e2,thinking that i cant hear those scoldings from teachers anymore,i cant attend in class with those buddies anymore,it just brings me this much of sadness. What would life be without them? i really wonder..The times we had as one,was unforgettable.. We were running before we knew it,we began to clique before we knew it,we were together before we knew it,i guess this is what we call friends,what we call fate..
I cant deny the fact that this is a phase in life we have to go through but I just simply cant overlook it,i cant be indifferent to the fact that it's over..

In any case,thank you guys.
:D/D;

well,it's been god damn long since i posted..yupps..erm..was kinda busy..or rather should i say was lazy to post..yupps...i guess my blog isnt something that people would want to read..yupps..erm..but as i promised.i will blog..
firstly..sec4 life is just a total shit..seriously..everything seems to revolve around you and your books..and for me..i was slacking..slakcing all the way...and totally hate it..cuz i then realise people around me are improving at a rate which i cant possibly catch up by now..and i feel really dumb to slacked so freaking much after the common tests...

got back test results then realise that i aint the weixuan that i was in the beginning of the year..and yupps..i freaking dont understand stuff that teacher have been teaching..and i feel really dumb of me..it's like teacher is teaching in class and i dont understand a single shit..everything seems greek to me..just feel like a guy stranded on island..all by himself..hopeless..

i am really worried for my mid year..is it going to be a real downturn for me??i am ainticiapting it..but not looking forward to it..it sucks totally..

well...talking about the new seating arrangement..was quite sastified with it..child prodigies are all around me..like ivana,kuangjun,joslynn,li jun,don,jianjie,jiajun,minhui..practically everyone around me are prodigies..and it kinda made me concentrated more..and more serious about studies..but i still cant win any of them..wnning them shall be the greatest achievement for my 16 years of life..really..was really awed by the clever-ness..well okay...

this year,have been with some people through bowen life for 4 years..and some only 2 years..but they have been a great bunch of people out there..yupps...the pictures are kinda on different occasion..yupps.sorry..till the next time i post..seeya!!